Ever have one of those perfect dreams that display what you really want? Like one of those ones induced by a flash of hormones an marijuana playing with your brain? Well I had one last night, and it's exactly what I want. I can't remember anything super specific but it really meant a lot to me. It's hard to explain, but it's just me and the person I love (no one specifically, just my dream person who didn't exist in real life, that I know of) spending a day together, just talking, and walking somewhere naturous. Something about smoking weed with just one other person feels so... intimate. It's just the two of us somewhere private, smoking it, and then we continue on our walk, holding hands, being ourselves, and do whatever we want. If I had just one day like that, I would be happy for a very long time.
So, I'm going to Holland in August! I can't wait. Turning 16 there, so I'll be able to legally get my drank on. Can't wait!!! I really hope I can find someone who I really like who is also.. interested in me. I want a romantic pen pal. (jesus fuck the wind blew my door shut and its dark and i'm alone and it scared the shit out of me)
Chris angers me sometimes. He seems so... disinterested all the time even though he has such a wonderful life. Lots of hot guys in his life, and whenever I try to talk to him he only replies with :P faces and one word answers. I'm going to send an offline message to him sometime, maybe I'll give him my blog and he'll know that I'm actually 15 years old. =D Wouldn't that be something? Bahh, I just don't know what he wants.
I'm definitely going to get a horrible mark in english. I don't do ANY homework. Mostly cause Mrs. Hunter is a dumb whore who should have gotten kicked out when we got EVERYONE IN THE CLASS TO SIGN A PETITION TO GET HER KICKED THE FUCK OUT. Godd.
I think I might like someone who I definitely should not like. Bahhh it feels so wrong but I think he's making subtle hints that he would be... interested. But I don't want to wreck things with him and a certain other person! AWimsfnsdfjkand. Maybe in the summer.
Oh, another thing. The song 'Summerboy' by Lady Gaga is also one of those things that I want. Kind of like the previously described dream, but different. I'd be quite content if I had someone like that for the summer, as well. Maybe the above person whom I was talking about?
So, I am quitting the football team this week FO SHO. Godddd I can't wait. McNab is gonna be super duper pissed, same with my dad/fraser. But whatevs, I'm not going through another 5 months of saying fuck my life I have football 6 days a week. Too bad for them. :P
Song of the day? 'Fill it up Again' by the Indigo Girls, my favorite lesbian folk rock duo.
Won't have you see me as your sad sack
Lost my something and I can't get it back
Or a kill on your trophy rack
I checked my schedule now my train is rolling down a track
Past the sadness of the salt flats
To the prospect of the land fat
Or just a lazy orange house cat
On the sofa where I'll be put up
You've been the hole in my sky, (you're) my shrinking water supply
Before my well runs dry
I'm going round round round the bend
Fill it up again
I'd like to say that it was clear to me
Love triangle geometry
But in the end it's still a mystery
The placement of affection and the dissaray
I gathered up the courage that it took
Made that bed
I took one last look
And you could hear the pages flapping in the wind blown
Book of my days, my days
One tank gone second thoughts are on my mind
What's this trip gonna cost me this time
The devil I know is starting to look awfully kind
But the new road is an old friend
Fill it up again
Happy 4/20 as of yesterday, and happy Earth Day as of tomorrow!
Here's to my first good blog in a real long time!
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